Hi Mom, Where are you?

I miss my mom.

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After everyone had gone and Dad and I were cleaning up some of your stuff... the house seemed oddly quiet... I think it was the void you've left.

I felt a tightness in my body... maybe I wanted to cry.

I'm afraid that I will forget the nuances of you.

You filled my world when you were alive... Having grown up in the world you created, I didn't recognize the uniqueness of you. I thought that is how the world was.

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I miss that you took interest in everything I had to say, no matter how trivial.

I miss you because you were my biggest fan.

No one could be as honest with me as you.

No one knew how to talk to me in such a non-confrontational way.

I miss that you could talk about a TV show as if it was real.

I miss that you never took anything too seriously.

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You collected coupons. You always sought a deal. You even kept track of deals that others would benefit from.

You always looked at the positive side of things... you didn't even remember the negative things.

You loved people... the more the merrier--especially if it is family.

Generosity was never enough when it came to family.

You always shared your bonuses with the whole family.

Helping others was never a chore.

You were never overtly judgemental.

You had an a great talent for organization-- you may have been a pack-rat, but no one would have ever known it (unfortunately, I inherited your penchant for collecting, but not your skill at organizing)

You always knew the latest airline deals.

You never let things or people get you down.

You were one for getting things done.

You always knew where everything was without looking.

You embraced new experiences.

You revelled in my life.

You were always modest; never demanding the spotlight.

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You taught me to separate each utinsil type in the dishwasher so that they are easier to put away.

You taught me to respect others.

You taught me to smile.

You taught me the value of family.

There is still so much I should have learned from you.